I’m BACK! It’s been a hectic few days and I just don’t know where to start.
On Friday I woke in a state of sheer panic.
My temperature had dropped, I had cold sweats and I couldn’t get my breathing under control.
Sam was worried and took me to hospital.
I had my bloods taken and an x-ray before sitting down with a doctor to discuss my problems.
After talking for a long time it was decided that my panic attacks and breathlessness needed to become a priority as they were starting to rule my life.
When the doctor mentioned “Dorothy House” I was scared. Dorothy House is a local hospice – a place I thought people went to die.
But it was explained to Sam and I in detail that this wasn’t the case at all.
In some circumstances Dorothy House is used for end of life care, but in my case it will act as a rehab where I will learn how to manage my panics attacks and breathlessness so that I am able to function at home.
I was pretty reluctant at first but I eventually decided to go.
And I can already say it was the best decision I have ever made.
The environment and staff instantly put me at ease – it’s so relaxing and the staf are so reassuring.
I arrived on Friday afternoon and flopped into bed. The weekend was a blur or sleeping and trying out my new calming medication.
I have to accept that this is another battle I have to undertake. But I will be patient and I will get there.