3 weeks of hell

Hey guys!

I’m back 😊

The last three weeks I think I can honestly say have been the hardest of my journey so far.

They have been absolute hell and it was starting to feel like it would never end.

Everyday I woke up and was sick, and had horrible tummy problems and sometimes inncontance because I was too poorly to move.

The pain was unbearable due to not being able to keep medication down.

I had sleepless nights, spent days crying from early evening till the sun came up.

I was exhausted because I never got a break. I had countless hospital appointments, countless home visits from nurses and doctors – just to get my symptoms under control.

I’ve had so many medication changes and Sam has had to give me painful injections. 

I spent many days just trying not to give up.

Eventually the doctors gave me my first blood transfusion and things started to change. 

I had a little more energy to fight the sickness and pain. 

Then the doctors managed to get the right medication combinations to manage the pain and sickness – at last a relief

3 weeks later and after losing a stone in weight, I was starting to feel OK again.

My muscles started to waste again and I was incredibly weak but I could hold a conversation, enjoy a drink and even have some nutella on toast.

  
 I had a second blood transfusion and I got another boost this week. The hope is this contiunes and I continue to get stronger and continue with the chemo and continue fighting.

I’ll need to start building my muscles and learning to eat again.

 It’s another fresh start but I think we finally are managing all those bloody chemo/cancer side effects.

 All I can say is thank God for morphine!

Love Laura,

Xx💕💕💕

Rt3 weeks of hell

Hey guys!

I’m back 😊

The last three weeks I think I can honestly say have been the hardest of my journey so far.

They have been absolute hell and it was starting to feel like it would never end.

Everyday I woke up and was sick, and had horrible tummy problems and sometimes inncontance because I was too poorly to move.

The pain was unbearable due to not being able to keep medication down.

I had sleepless nights, spent days crying from early evening till the sun came up.

I was exhausted because I never got a break. I had countless hospital appointments, countless home visits from nurses and doctors – just to get my symptoms under control.

I’ve had so many medication changes and Sam has had to give me painful injections. 

I spent many days just trying not to give up.

Eventually the doctors gave me my first blood transfusion and things started to change. 

I had a little more energy to fight the sickness and pain. 

Then the doctors managed to get the right medication combinations to manage the pain and sickness – at last a relief

3 weeks later and after losing a stone in weight, I was starting to feel OK again.

My muscles started to waste again and I was incredibly weak but I could hold a conversation, enjoy a drink and even have some nutella on toast.

  
 I had a second blood transfusion and I got another boost this week. The hope is this contiunes and I continue to get stronger and continue with the chemo and continue fighting.

I’ll need to start building my muscles and learning to eat again.

 It’s another fresh start but I think we finally are managing all those bloody chemo/cancer side effects.

 All I can say is thank God for morphine!

Love Laura,

Xx💕💕💕

Being well enough to blog..

Hi Guys

I’m back at last, well I think anyway, I’m getting there may be the best way to describe it. The last few days or it may even been a week since I last posted I have been incredibly unwell, I might even go as far to say its the worst I have felt since leaving hospital.

It started with the nausea that led to full blown sickness that led me unable to keep any of my tablets down and more importantly my pain medication down. I felt paralyzed by both the sickness and pain battling each other. Days were spent bedridden struggling even to hold even a conversation with Sam, I know these last days have also taken a massive toll on Sam but he as always has handled the situation with love and humor.

On Monday the district nurse came as usual to do bloods, Picc line and drain and we went through how the sickness has effected me and she said that we should of called and they would of come to give me an injection to help…we had no idea, we were already using three types of anti-sickness medication and thought we had run out of options. Within half an hour the nurse came back with the injection and administered whist teaching Sam how to give the injection also. Within the hour I had relief, the first sense of relief I have had in what had felt like a very long time. The only downside was the injection causes drowsiness so within the hour after that I was asleep, however it was worth it because at last I could take my pain relief.

I didn’t realise how drastically my health would change daily but now I’m coming to understand that I need to listen to my body more. With that being said, I will still try for daily blogs as that was always what I set out to do, although I may have to miss a day or two sometimes, I will always post as soon as I’m well again as this blog means so much to me and being able to connect with so many people.

Thank you for your patience and love

Love Always x