I’m back 😊
The last three weeks I think I can honestly say have been the hardest of my journey so far.
They have been absolute hell and it was starting to feel like it would never end.
Everyday I woke up and was sick, and had horrible tummy problems and sometimes inncontance because I was too poorly to move.
The pain was unbearable due to not being able to keep medication down.
I had sleepless nights, spent days crying from early evening till the sun came up.
I was exhausted because I never got a break. I had countless hospital appointments, countless home visits from nurses and doctors – just to get my symptoms under control.
I’ve had so many medication changes and Sam has had to give me painful injections.
I spent many days just trying not to give up.
Eventually the doctors gave me my first blood transfusion and things started to change.
I had a little more energy to fight the sickness and pain.
Then the doctors managed to get the right medication combinations to manage the pain and sickness – at last a relief
3 weeks later and after losing a stone in weight, I was starting to feel OK again.
My muscles started to waste again and I was incredibly weak but I could hold a conversation, enjoy a drink and even have some nutella on toast.
I’ll need to start building my muscles and learning to eat again.
It’s another fresh start but I think we finally are managing all those bloody chemo/cancer side effects.
All I can say is thank God for morphine!